It's My Birthday!
Mood:  special
Topic: Birthdays
So, it's my birthday. Yeah me!

I didn't have birthdays when I was little. I had my first birthday that I don't remember, and my fifth and sixth birthdays which I remember a little. My father then totally converted to being a Jehovah's Witness and that was the end of my birthdays.

My friends Chrissy and Mia had a party on my 15th birthday, although it really wasn't for me.

I have never really had a birthday party as an adult in my honor. My ex-husband never did anything for my birthdays. Nothing really special. Occasionally he'd bring home Chinese food, but nothing really romantic or special. No flowers. No candy. Nothing really. Occasionally I got a card I am sure he just picked up somewhere without much thought. It never had anything but Happy Birthday in it, no personalization or notes. That wasn't his style.

Matt's much better by far. He not only spends money on me, he spends THOUGHTS on me. Actually giving a shit and doing something that I would really appreciate.

I took the day off work and did nothing. I watched some of the first season of the Sopranos we have rented on DVD. I played a little on the computer. I have lounged around not cleaning up after Friday night's promotion party for Matt, I've done NOTHING. AND, I could care less if the house gets cleaned.

Matt's been wonderful as usual. These last few days have been extra special. He's a gift...a big unwrapped birthday gift all year long and that more than makes up for all of the stupid, terrible birthday's I have had my whole life until he entered it.